Uhh oh.

I think I've used this as a title before. Oh well.

Earlier (like.. 35 minutes ago) my mom said we were having a 'Family Meeting' tomorrow. I have a feeling it's going to be unpleasent.. and I'm a little scared to even ask to be able to go to Katie's party on friday so I'm just.. not going to go.

And she keeps putting me on a guilt trip saying how she keeps throwing money away on things, like SENDING ME TO KINGSTON or having to pay for my phone bills. Like okay, I get it, I don't have a job. I'm working on it okay, it's a lot more than what other people I know are doing. You always say "I wont ever force you to do anything" but you always jump back and fourth and I never know where you fucking stand.

I really do want to get a job. But I'm not going to take out my lipring out for one. I know that sounds stubborn and stupid but I spent $40 to get it done and I'm not going to risk it closing up to have to go get it done AGAIN. Like no fuck that. I'm just a little iritated right now.. and upset. Fucking hate when I have days that suck one after the other.